I hope there’s going to be a day when I wake up and finally understand compassion. What it means to sympathize or empathize or understand how people are feeling when they’re crying or sad or struggling. I try so hard to feel the way I’m supposed to, feel sorry or upset but I can’t. I just can’t feel it. Maybe it’s hard for me to express compassion because I don’t actually feel it, even though I really want to. Does that make me a bad person? I don’t know how to say those kind hearted words to make you feel better and I don’t know what to do when you cry. I like to pretend that everything is normal because I don’t know how to feel otherwise. I’m sorry I don’t understand, even if I really want to.
Rainy days are the best days because you find the stupidest things to do inside with your friends, or just end up sprawled on the floor talking about life.
Sometimes when I was working as a waitress, a kind stranger would ask me to buy a drink or appetizer for a lady eating or waiting by herself on him. I secretly wished someone would do that for me.
I love having my nails done… but I’m terrible at putting it on! And I always use the cheap stuff, so my nails get gross. I guess I’m just too cheap to buy the nice base and protectant and all that. I’m really feelin’ a French right now!
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Okay, so I like Star Wars…
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What is your favorite memoir you have read?
I don’t really read memoirs, lol!
- Bare Backs - Will always be infinitely sexy
- Lace - Grew on me, but not easy to pull off if you don’t know what you’re doing
- Front Zippers - Suggestive but oh-so-sexy
- Chiffon - Hot, classy, and great with bandeaus or tight short skirts
- Crop T’s - Style of the season
- Oversized button-downs - Girls, the boyfriend button-down is the sexiest thing alive in your closet
- The Leather Jacket - Can we get some badassery over here?
- Crocs - I don’t care how comfortable you claim they are; they’re a fashion disaster
- Rompers - Impractical and just plain weird
- Floor Length Skirts - Just not to my taste… hard to pull off
- Metallic/Sparkly/Glittery Leggings - Just no
- Vertical Stripes - It’s supposed to make you look thinner but I think it just looks dumb
- Vera Bradley - Just keep telling yourself it’s chic, I dare you
- Lace Shorts - What…?
I just recently started my training to be a server at Benihana. I’m working at the sushi bar side, which I guess I’m pretty thankful for because the hibachi grill side looks chaotic and I feel like I would panic. The uniform is cute enough, and it’s got my favorite color combination - red and black. Did you know that Benihana means “red flower” like, hong hua? Japanese characters look really similar to Chinese characters…
If anyone is looking for work shoes, don’t even bother trying to find a nonslip pair at DSW or Famous Footwear or something. I’ve tried about three different pairs of black sneakers and they’ve all been terrible - even the ones that are marked “slip resistant.” My co-worker recommended me to order work shoes online, so I just Amazon’d a pair of Skechers work shoes. I’m crossing my fingers that they fit/work!
So far my summer is looking like summer classes and work. I’m scheduled for over 30 hours in the next week.. which is full-time at Benihana. (When I applied, I asked for part-time?) Then I have classes Mon-Thurs morning… I had all this stuff planned to do during the summer but it looks like I won’t have time for much else. I’ve always wondered how people stay motivated, well, happy mostly, in this kind of monotony. I think everyone just has a set goal in mind, and they know that they’re working toward it. As much as I’d like to think I have that kind of hard determination, I’m not so sure that’s me. I know I get things done, but how do you stay happy doing it?
I would like to think I changed but I guess I’m still pretty much the same person as I was in high school.
I’m spending the week in Chicago for a service learning volunteer trip sponsored by a University of Michigan organization. Today was our day off, so we spent it shopping down the Magnificent Mile and visiting the Millennium Park! Tomorrow is our first day on the volunteering job. We’re helping out at the Asian Youth Services in uptown Chicago… I really am excited to meet the kids and I’m pumped to help organize and help out as much as I can!
We also visited Water Tower Place’s Sephora, and I had some fun messing around with the free make-up testers. I really need to get an income so I can indulge myself in some clothes, make-up, and video games… Next door to Water Tower Place is the Hancock Building where the famous Cheesecake Factory is located! For a hefty price of around $7 a slice, the cheesecake there is the most amazing cheesecake you will ever eat in your LIFE, guaranteed.