I hope there’s going to be a day when I wake up and finally understand compassion. What it means to sympathize or empathize or understand how people are feeling when they’re crying or sad or struggling. I try so hard to feel the way I’m supposed to, feel sorry or upset but I can’t. I just can’t feel it. Maybe it’s hard for me to express compassion because I don’t actually feel it, even though I really want to. Does that make me a bad person? I don’t know how to say those kind hearted words to make you feel better and I don’t know what to do when you cry. I like to pretend that everything is normal because I don’t know how to feel otherwise. I’m sorry I don’t understand, even if I really want to.
Rainy days are the best days because you find the stupidest things to do inside with your friends, or just end up sprawled on the floor talking about life.
Sometimes when I was working as a waitress, a kind stranger would ask me to buy a drink or appetizer for a lady eating or waiting by herself on him. I secretly wished someone would do that for me.
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am obsessed with this jacket!
I love having my nails done… but I’m terrible at putting it on! And I always use the cheap stuff, so my nails get gross. I guess I’m just too cheap to buy the nice base and protectant and all that. I’m really feelin’ a French right now!
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Okay, so I like Star Wars…
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What is your favorite memoir you have read?
I don’t really read memoirs, lol!
- Bare Backs - Will always be infinitely sexy
- Lace - Grew on me, but not easy to pull off if you don’t know what you’re doing
- Front Zippers - Suggestive but oh-so-sexy
- Chiffon - Hot, classy, and great with bandeaus or tight short skirts
- Crop T’s - Style of the season
- Oversized button-downs - Girls, the boyfriend button-down is the sexiest thing alive in your closet
- The Leather Jacket - Can we get some badassery over here?
- Crocs - I don’t care how comfortable you claim they are; they’re a fashion disaster
- Rompers - Impractical and just plain weird
- Floor Length Skirts - Just not to my taste… hard to pull off
- Metallic/Sparkly/Glittery Leggings - Just no
- Vertical Stripes - It’s supposed to make you look thinner but I think it just looks dumb
- Vera Bradley - Just keep telling yourself it’s chic, I dare you
- Lace Shorts - What…?
Working as a server, I noticed that most people don’t realize how much of an impact they have on my my mood for the remainder of the day based on how they treat me. Honestly, one really nice table that gives you a really nice tip just makes my day… even if the rest of the tables are just jerks. Maybe I just take things to heart too much. Even little things like the chefs being really nice to me or helping me out makes me like working there more, and gives a little somethin’ to my self-esteem. Everyone there is so nice (minus one old lady but hey whatever)!
Bandeaus are so in.
I’ve only been working for about 3-4 weeks now at Benihana, and I’m already making some crazy cash. It really pays to be a waitress! My first big expense was my 160GB PS3 which I’ve been dying to get for ages now. I know I’m late on the game, but I only buy used games anyway, so whatever, right? I can’t wait to finish Xenoblade Chronicles on the Wii, which is, by the way, the best JRPG I have ever played, so I can start some classics on my PS3. I’m thinking some ACII or Valkyria Chronicles?
I just recently started my training to be a server at Benihana. I’m working at the sushi bar side, which I guess I’m pretty thankful for because the hibachi grill side looks chaotic and I feel like I would panic. The uniform is cute enough, and it’s got my favorite color combination - red and black. Did you know that Benihana means “red flower” like, hong hua? Japanese characters look really similar to Chinese characters…
If anyone is looking for work shoes, don’t even bother trying to find a nonslip pair at DSW or Famous Footwear or something. I’ve tried about three different pairs of black sneakers and they’ve all been terrible - even the ones that are marked “slip resistant.” My co-worker recommended me to order work shoes online, so I just Amazon’d a pair of Skechers work shoes. I’m crossing my fingers that they fit/work!
So far my summer is looking like summer classes and work. I’m scheduled for over 30 hours in the next week.. which is full-time at Benihana. (When I applied, I asked for part-time?) Then I have classes Mon-Thurs morning… I had all this stuff planned to do during the summer but it looks like I won’t have time for much else. I’ve always wondered how people stay motivated, well, happy mostly, in this kind of monotony. I think everyone just has a set goal in mind, and they know that they’re working toward it. As much as I’d like to think I have that kind of hard determination, I’m not so sure that’s me. I know I get things done, but how do you stay happy doing it?
I would like to think I changed but I guess I’m still pretty much the same person as I was in high school.